Thursday, May 15, 2008 10:08 PM
I SUCK AGAINI realise things werent getting any better since i got my papers yesterday. My life just went hay wire, nothing goes back on the right track
Today was i guess worst than yesterday.My results for MEP actually came back and i only know that i will be collecting it 1hr beforehand. No xin li zhun bei and i know i didnt do them well but i really want to pass as i already FAILED badly for the 2 previous papers.
It came back, my harmony paper failed by 1.5 marks, its still a fail. I previous harmony paper failed too, it was my best section last year, dun noe why, it just dropped like mad. I really am stupid and cannot learn music fast and catch up the others, i guess sooner or later they will kick me out.
I failed my history MEP paper by 5 marks, really xin tong. i never knew i will fail so horribly cum my ethinic paper only passed by 1 mark, so it is bu ke neng can pull up my marks.
I TOTALLY BET MY GPA WILL BE LIKE A 1.0.
I suck, i never gotten so low, so horrible in my life. i cannot accept who i am now, someone who flunks everything, low expectations, and someone who fails MEP so so so badly that i darn not tell my parents, can some kind sole teach me how, i am lost, confused with a broken heart when i see my test papers. However, my parents sooner or later will know as i will get back my progress report really soon.
I think i will be KICKED OUT OF MEP, i have no right to stay on, i'm totally flunking it like no body's buisness, someone not worth staying on earth, staying in RGS, but possibly in mars or better still HELL. i really dun noe the true me now, i dun noe what i wan what i expect, i totally lost myself.
Sry, i really need time to accept this and chill.
Bye *off i disappear in the washroom*
haiqing
I was here (:
